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Twice a day
the equilibrium shifts.
The tide runs up the bay
into the river,
then the river runs out
into the bay.
Twice a day
birds rise and settle,
an osprey dangles
in the swift wind.
Half asleep, I dream—
or think I dream—of dairy cows,
dairy cows who used to graze on the salt grass
of the submissive tidal flats. If time were like the tide,
we would surge into the future
then rush back into the past
twice daily, with the present
only the expectation or regret
of the equilibrium shifting,
and if the river could type,
this is how it would sound:
a soft rush and whisper of keys
on a flat surface,
a current of brisk sighs.
Like the ceiling for the sick
Staring too long
Blemishes and patterns
Forming into things
St Bernards jumping clouds
Minotaurs drinking beer
Staring too long
And patterns appear
Cryptomorphs from chaos
Patterns and patterns
Designs in the mind
Only in the mind
As a child I had a recurring dream.
The sky was a tent-top of glass, or porcelain
And when I saw a crack begin to form,
It was my job to repair the crack.
I climbed a ladder to the brink of the sky
and I was patching the crack with spackle
When another crack formed,
and another, and another.
The profoundest grief swept over me,
Knowing my job was impossible to do.
The atoms of the universe were coming apart
And how did I get saddled with this.
Then I woke up to my sister dying in one room,
My mother sobbing in the next,
My father snoring drunk in the third.
The atoms of the universe coming apart,
And my job, repairing the crack.
was not always this huge, nor I.
We grew like redwoods, equally
slow, together. I found
my bicycle crippled, tireless,
tangled in the kudzu. Resurrected,
shining like a Cadillac, we pedaled
Southern streets, the diamonds
sparkling in the asphalt. I felt
the tug of my bicycle while chained
to its rack outside the Highlander,
where I'd lassoed myself
a barstool. My bicycle grew
lonely. I found another bicycle
rusting in the Salvation Army.
Sparks flew, molten metal, a bicycle
marriage. Still, my bicycle pestered
me from its empty bike rack,
witnessing after-school fights,
while I licked away whiskey
trapped in my cuticles.
I bought my bicycle shots of Jaeger.
We rode to Vickery's, to the Righteous
Room, to Smith's. My bicycle and I
grew attached—as they say—at the hip.
Though, realistically, we'd fused
at my crotch. Soon I saw the pebbles
below the tires were really boulders
and automobiles, that the bike trail
was a grid of city streets,
and the patchwork I had taken
for flagstones were houses
and skyscrapers. My bicycle and I
topped mountains—bunnyhopped
the Rockies, splashed across a puddle—
the Pacific. We dipped down
Everest and ground the spokes
against the Great Wall. And soon
my bicycle and I had grown
too big, even, for the planet, each orbit
a single secondary lap. My cap
knocked the space station
into the asteroid belt. I stroked the moon
and my fingers grayed with dust.
My retinas sizzled in the sun's rays.
I follow you through empty evenings,
a rainless cloud, light and full of mist.
Engulf my body. Spin me through your life.
We could rip trees by roots from hard dirt,
splash through mud, leave footsteps
to be filled by other, smaller clouds.
Tomorrow I won’t follow. I will walk ahead—
let my body grow heavy in dark wind, wring
myself like mother’s old dish towels laid
across the cutting board. Oh,
but wait for me. I can be Artemis, Persephone,
Aphrodite; a body made from stars and comets.
Views are dots:
This planet, that other-----
Perfect circles, perfect space &
The calm so absolute with every hued
Orb intensifying the gigantic black…
Ball after ball, I lay down & pray to this,
The symmetry, the distances, the teeming,
Milling intricacy whose fibrous cells
I also love…
Give me asteroids, their random gravitational
Pull. Give comets as bull’s eyes-----
Clouds go over like the music of ivy,
A Brahms sonata there in those stems,
Brahms meeting the international, multi-
Cultural, the jazz, sitars & hip hop…
Hop, hop, I am loose & I am hip
Over the earth’s variations & what lies beyond
Its skins-----
Eyes as flesh, every pore as silk, as sifting
Deserts, as Kilimanjaro snows, & we all
Warmth only, one more mass energy
Simply significant
Travel on the backs of black wings,
The big birds of silences, of invisibilities
Found in thousands of rustling feathers
As one above trees, town, feeling
That breath, its passage
As a sea of deep glass pockets,
Deep glass sleeves
Revealing the clouds, the stars
& the motion of a new day behind
These hills, these horizons, this time
Air here
(can you)
largest mob scene
(read me)
in miniature
(over)
all over
& absorbed
simple relation
(may day)
respiration
( may)
the dinosaurs
(day return)
the endangered
(air)
paws, horns, pores
(air here)
how, after
(may day)
give skin back
(can you)
who, before
(read me)
sounds the alarm (over)
You were standing in the doorway
or in the hallway, next to the frig or
upstairs on the landing, briefly
on the shoreline on Shi Shi beach
or at Basecamp with the yaks and magpies
(did I know there were magpies?)
and for a moment it is all clear
this spatial confusion, this drifting you do
between places you have never been.
You were and now you are not,
I am here only remembering, building
a cage in my mind for you
transplanting you into the many,
playing the game of memory. Every time
I go to get a fresh beer, you disappear.
No that’s not right, but in time it rhymes,
and that is enough to make you appear
beneath the covers, at that indelible moment
when I was just home from India.
Do you remember? I’ve often asked myself.
You were and are someone else.
And it just won’t fade. That’s the thing
about memories, indelible as they are,
they are lies that will not go away,
situating you wherever you are then,
right in the way, moving you about forever,
keeping you standing there in the doorway.

I bought you a red Ipod
for Xmas.
In limited space
for the free engraving:
‘download
my love for free’
“I need my socks,”
you say curled
on the couch.
“Well,
go get them,” I say.
“I cant.
The cat’s sleeping
on my lap.”
“Fine.
Where are they?”
“One is on the bed,
one is in the bed”
Would we parade
our crimes
in front of an open window?
Coming out of this, coming out of that,
Coming out as this, coming out as that,
Coming out as not this and not that,
Coming out even as not quite this or that,
Coming out over and over.
Not quite knowing what you were in
That you came out of
Or came into.
Out isn't quite outright out
Since you seem to always have more
To come out of,
as and into.
We needn't go about this for long,
If we start pulling down the walls.
Standing nose-to-nose with it
didn't help.
Both life and I dealing
in feverish hot breaths
and squinting hard to see
(or not)
the scars so close
on each other.
So we agreed
to put poetry between us.
We are fine with the eclipses.